BAH HA!

Blog?  What blog?

I've been neglecting any sort of written expression aside from doodling incoherent messes on test papers and post cards; why?

I've come to the conclusion that I'm figuratively constipated.  I have too many things buzzing around my brain and not enough nets to catch them in.  With me being on Winter Break for the next month or so I think I should have sufficient time to get my fleeting thoughts in order.

For now, I'll just poet you something.  Yes, poet is now a verb.

Absurdly apparent, you try and hide,

covering and mocking yourself, full of pride.

Reveal what you truly feel,

hurt and angst, 

stop with the bullshit, tired, child pranks.

Waxing and waning, emotions on high,

up and down she goes, though she never ever cries.

Wham, bam, thank youuu ma'am

From now on I am aware of my Textual Activity Blog and will post more often... and because of this I'll feel less constipated.  Thank Heavens, capital H.

Completely Unaware

I was completely unaware that I had a blog until today when Mr.Parson's painstakingly reminded me that I hadn't updated since March... obviously, he is my only reader.

This week I've felt an overwhelming sense of work and stress that was beyond my control, but today during Spanish I began to understand how to counterbalance said stress by working through my tiring load at full speed and when I got done, yes I was exhausted but I felt really good about the work I had accomplished.  Sr. also validated these "levels" of stress without patronizing me so that was really nice. Tonight I plan on continuing my studying streak by heading a el Borders to check out some AP books and whathaveyou, maybe knock out some SEAP legalities as well.  (Don't even get me started on SEAP, I feel it's completely inconsistent and serves only one purpose, it enables students to procrastinate and teaches us to BS even more so than we already do.)

Other than the above things I feel very thankful for everything right now, even though sometimes I can't pick out the positive things in my life I'm still so thankful for having a life to live, a house, food and clothes... this rice bowl project has touched me and hopefully it has touched the people involved. ...I found a non-profit organization that supplies willing participants with plastic containers to collect change in, shaped like rice bowls, to benefit starving peoples in Indonesia, Nicaragua, Northern Africa, pick your region. I'm just glad that the choir is finally following through with our mission statement and goal by giving back.  :)  It helps me feel like a better person at least.  Hopefully in the future I can be an independent philanthropist and anonymously give money to charities willy-nilly.  That's like a life goal of mine; that and to atone.  :) 

Say a prayer for me, these next few weeks will be hard for all of us, AP tests, performances, graduation... these are stressin' out times. 

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Cheap Emeralds and Death

For my birthday this year I've made it clear to my family that I would like a ring or something to the birthstone effect for 'heirloom' purposes... let the games begin. Today, Ma and I went gem huntin' in the mall and out of all five corner jewelers we went to the least reliable and found a pretty lil' winner. On sale, ha ha, in all of it's tri-emerald glory... here's the catch, I do not want a synthetic emerald... picky, picky, I know, but I still want a dark colored stone. (The darker the natural emerald the more rare it is, that translates to 'puts a whole in your wallet') The ring we found was beautiful nonetheless, but the stones were very light in color... whatever, it's pretty and I want it.

Now for the death portion of my blog: everyone is dying. My mom's cousin croaked, my grandpa's brother passed away today, my great grandma is on the verge and my aunt has had death knocking on her door since she was first diagnosed with breast cancer. I am so glad that I've already come to terms with tragedy so far in my young life... just say a prayer for my fam, I don't know how many more sympathy wreaths we can afford to shell out.

So excited.

Susan, you should be too. This movie looks so cute!  'Tis called Revolutionary Road, starring the dynamic duo of DiCaprio and Winslet, last seen together, as all of you should know, in Titanic.  Trailers haven't been released yet but IMDB.com claims that this movie is based on a Richard Yates novel about a young couple from the Northeast raising their children in the fifties.  :)  Set to come to theaters in December.  Yay!  My prediction is that it won't do super well Box-Office wise but I'm sure that critics will be all over this simply because of the hype between the two stars and some of their fan-followers.  Nonetheless, I'm excited and I know that Susan should be too.  Tee hee. 

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Speling Errers in Porfessional Settins

You just can do it.  ... you just can't.  I pride myself in having vurry few spelling errors even in things as trivial as texting and whilst IM-ing.  Example: I could say "Sup?"  instead of "What's up?" but I much more prefer to say the latter. It's acceptable to spell certain things wrong in everyday written conversation or in the "blogosphere" but when you're constructing a website for your professional aspirations I'd like to think that humanity would want to take much more care in their spelling and typing errors.  AH!  Peeeeeeve.

The word problem doesn't have two Ms as shown: promblem.  I don't think that's a typo, and it's on a "professional" website, in bold print, as a headline.

Simply because I've ridiculed someone else's spelling issues I'll begin to experience some sort of other embarrassing grammatical issue. 

Shit. :)

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Can We Discuss Something?

This "we" I am referring to may only just be me... flip the 'W', I'll be fine.

Can we discuss how funny Maria Bamford is? I am giving ALL credit to Ashley Wuerth and Claire Whitaker for telling me about this gem. Yes, she does "voices" like lots o' comedians but she's a different breed of comedienne. She's pretty and not a lesbo. (muahha ha aha) In all sincerity, this woman is the shiz-nasty.



Check out her webisodes as well... just go through her website, mariabamford.com

Love her.

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Blogging Has Left My Building

In all honesty... I forgot that I even had a blog for an entire week.  :/ Maybe that's why I've been more stressed out than usual; I haven't vented all that much.  Let's capture everything in a nutshell using bullets:

- By Request Camp - super fun... you should check out the Facebook video, it's on my profile.  The video is what sums up camp in a concise lil' 3-minute vignette.

- OMEA Preparation -  I haven't been doing as much as some people but I feel as the the "Ohio Music Education Association" Adjudicated Event nears more and more hair is falling out.  This is the first time in a long time that Glen Este is hosting such a magnificent event and I do believe that it's trying everyone, mentally and emotionally.

- The Newly Developed Snow Storm that's headed our way I am suuuuper excited about.  Yes, I am sick of the snow and just want summer to be here but I am NEVER sick of potential days off.  Best case scenario: we have a snow day tomorrow but can still host OMEA that night and the next day.  Ah, beautiful.

-The OGT - I LOVE MY SCHOOL. As the sophomores are trying to graduate by taking a proficiency test, us Juniors and Seniors will be sleeping in... we do not have to report to first bell until 10 o'clock EVERYDAY next week. Can I get a hallelujah?!

Short post, I'm tired, I'll be more thorough at a later date. 

:)

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Double Post Madness

Yes.  Two posts, one night, it just feels necessary.  I honestly and truly feel compelled to "blog" (I sorta hate that verb) my ass off right now.  I really don't even know where my quote ass is going right at this moment either.  I don't think that more than two people read this.  Me and occasionally Susan with a Parsons and Alex thrown in there.  SO, whoever is fortunate enough to grace their eyes upon this gift of a literary passage, feel blessed.  Yes, blessed, from the Lord above at this instant.  BAM; blessings.  What you are reading right now could be your ticket to enlightenment... I highly doubt that but whatever.  You catch my drift?  Cool.


I am having a difficult time right now just being content with what I want and what I think I want.  I know all of the possible solutions to me feeling this way but I haven't found one just yet that suits my pensivity.  (Disclaimer:  I just made the word pensivity up.)  I am enrolled as Jessica Link: theatre major for Ohio University but am currently having second thoughts upon that major and am leaning more towards that of education underneath the espanol realm. Ya herrdd, biznatch.  Espanol para Isa Iba sin todos de la mierda.  This is fine, I am accepting the fact that I want to change my major... what I'm not okay with is as followed: will I miss something in the theatre realm if I change my major?  Is this what I am supposed to do?  Why isn't God answering my prayers?  What the crap, God??  But for realz, I am accepting that I can't have my cake and eat it too with my "passions" but it's hard to feel okay about my decision when I feel like I am being given no direction whatsoever, from my family, friends or God.  Maybe I'm just being incredibly self-absorbed and cannot see any of the signs, maybe that's the whole reason for me going through this, so I can realize my "self-absorption".  Yeah, that sounds good, God puts me through a struggle deciding my majors to ultimately help me understand how I've been acting.  I don't even know how to wrap this blog up, alskfjakls, I feel so un-tied and disjointed. 

... I need to attend more church... that's it. 

Was any of that coherent?   I think not. 

That's okay.

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Kellie Chronicles

This is video volume two of the Kellie Link chronicles... to preface the video, my mother and I got into a heated argument in the front seat of our deluxe Jeep Commander about who would drive my father's infamous "dirty truck" (without four wheel drive, mind you, in the scary snow time) for the rest of the day. Mother started to get very colorful, if you will, with her language so I decided to catch the gem on film. You might have seen her first YouTube appearance in "Mattress Surfin' with Kellie Link"... I suggest that you check 'er out. Scroll down a few blogs, she's there. Enjoy.




Ya know, we can all be a lil' white trash sometimes. ... Keep it real.

Flock and Twitter

The coolest adjectives ever right??  Not just that, but some pretty cool tools!  I love how "technologically advanced" Mr. Riel is... he tells me to go join this site, go download this application, hit shift+apple+3, or what have you and I seem to alllways enjoy what he has to share.

Flock is this sweet internet browser that keeps you and your social networking sites linked quickly.  Sidebars, RSS subscription help, very vurry awesome solutions to the everyday tedious-ness of logging-in to multiple separate networking accounts, be it Blogger, Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, pick your poison; every feed, update, new request is conveniently located on the left side of the web page... BEAUTIFUL!

Now for Twitter, another super cool tool that utilizes the instant gratification X-factor so present in today's younger generations.  Think Facebook notifications and Away Messages came together to make a baby... that's Twitter... just check it out.

:)  Those are my plugs.

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Mid-Winter Break

It's such a beautiful thing to have a four-day weekend...ahh.  I have all the time in the world to do nothing; I really should be doing everything.  Teachers loaded us up for the break with AP English, U.S., Spanish and Sr. Math.  I believe that they should have weekly meetings to decide who is going to give the homework and when, I don't think that it's too fair to load up yo' students with an ample workload that turns into a heaping mountain of shit simply because everyone else is giving the same ample load full...  grr, alas I understand that you can't always get what you want, Mick Jagger said it best.

Short post.  That's alright, I had nothing too appalling or appealing to post.  :)  I'm content with that.

Praying for that Snooow Day!

Please, please, please, Snow Gods, oh please... let the snow just SATURATE all that is road.  Please.  

So, alright, cool, got that out of the way.  :)  Tonight was quite enjoyable; Kenwood, Mac Store, ice cream and the First Wives Club.  Such goodness.  (Yes, I finally gave in and ate ice cream... I'm trying a no carb diet but that ice cream was just a-callin', and I gave in.  OOps.)  Aaaand I can't wait for an iPhone of my own, just look at this beautiful photo I took with it!  It's so crisp and clear!  I really love how the Apple turned out, too.  Can't wait... if the phone doesn't become available to all networks by May Imma just going to have to get one and switch to AT&T, I'm okay with that, I'd just really like to stay on my parents...  that means I don't have to pay extra, tee hee.  Ah, no school tomorrow, no school, no school, no school!  Maybe if I say it enough it will just happen!  No school, no school, no school... a million dollars, a million dollars, a million dollars... a girl can wish.  :)

Until next time, but for now, enjoy this funny video.  To preface the situation and content I am posting I'd just like to say that I am a Clinton supporter but this has to be one of the funniest things I have ever watched.

Horrible Day

So I had a horrible day on account of so many little things.  It's the little things that really get me... I lost my socks, I ate my lunch too early so at regular lunch time I had to eat celery, I left my tights on all day, I registered to vote thinking that I could still vote for the primary (not true), didn't have the best By Request experience, and then I went to work just to pick up my check and vent to Liz but NO, I ended up spilling a whole crap ton of stuff to my manager.  

*SCREAM*

But ya know... I want to leave that all behind.  ALL of it.  I just left it all behind right there in that lil' paragraph.  Things today that were enjoyable: the progress we made on our choreography project, the work the officers have gotten done lately, the ranch that I ate with my celery, listening to middle school auditions, laughing with Suze during said auditions, and the Alto Jews.

Ah, I feel better.  Now I'll leave you with a classic JKL Video... a spoof on a country song.

Things That Keep Me Laughing

The BEST Hillshire Farms commercial thanks to the Afro-Woman who says, "That's crazy girl, I swear." And, "Yo' mama says you hungry!" Christ, if you don't find this at least semi-entertaining there might be something wrong with you.

If you haven't seen this commercial yet... may God bless you when you watch it. You lint lickerrr! :D ha ha haha.

aaaand, my mother. :)

The Black Pearl

Before that moment - my heart was too blind to see - 

My body folded in half,

my heart caved in on itself.

I never knew her to be so solemn.

Whispers of worries-

calm, collected, she hurried.

Hurried to speak past true tears.

I saw through glossy brown lies,

as she revealed to my unbelieving eyes-

black pearls she stored deep within.

"No longer am I happy,

be this story sad or sappy; 

I feel my wheels keep spinning.

I want to achieve the most,

but disappointment I host,

in the life that I have invested."

I took a deep breath-

unsettled at best,

my brain digested honesty she spoke.

After the shocking hour,

her heart was fully devoured

by demons of waning dreams.

My body folded in half,

my heart caved in on itself.

Layers had been peeled away.

After that moment - my heart murmured a prayer.

Different, Fun, New

So my aunt gave me 600 dollars.  (#@$5%*!)  I was so excited because my France/Spain trip that I'm going on in June is expensive and the final payment, which is due on March 3rd, is 2,000 dollars even... I have 800 dollars in the bank. So that makes 1400, which means technically I could produce the new reduced rate of only 400 dollars with the next two Hallmark paychecks that I receive!  And with a hefty tax return coming my way this means that the iPhone should be mine promptly!  :) :0 :* Let's hope for April... by April I should be an iPhone owner.  *sigh* 

What else, what else...

Really, that's all.  What a boring blogger I am?  I am a boring blogger.  *sad sigh*

Er, yeah, hum, grr, okay.

:)

I still feel content though.

Hopefully I'll have something interesting to post later.

Lazy Sloth

That's me, a lazy sloth.  I have been endowed with the gift of not wanting to exert energy, ever.  Well, that's a lie, whenever something directly benefits me, I'll do it within a hop, skip n' jump. Bake a cake?  Surely, I'll do that 'cause I can eat it.  Take pictures and video of others?  Absolutely, I may be taking pictures of you but honestly, I make the videos for self-praise.  When it comes to working at Hallmark I avoid tasks at all costs.  I got asked to stock a crap-load of cards one day... like a good lil' associate I took the cards and walked behind one of the aisles to begin to put the cards in their respective slots.  One minute leaks by, another slowly passes ... I shoved the box of friendly greetings underneath the card-rung where extra stock is held.  No one ever knew that it was me.  For the rest of the day I stood in the back corner and texted.  Shortcuts, I find 'em, I take 'em.  

That will be changed from here on out.

Last night I had a shift from 5 to 9 with Kathy, a full time woman of whom I have never thought held the highest respects for moi. Just Kathy and I, me and Krazy Kath, the K-Dawg. What's a girl to do, no witty banter to be had, no chit chat to partake in, just Kathy.  :(  I walked between the knick-knacks and porcelain Christmas figurines as I was greeted by the golden girl herself, "Heeey, Jessie Girl!"  Har-dee-har.  I settled my purse into an empty locker and grabbed my smock as I braced myself for the slowest night of my life.  Counting.  I had to count all of the discounted Christmas SHIT that Hallmark calls quality product.  As Kathy gave my assignment I felt a sudden urge.  An unsettling urge to punch her square in the jaw, grab her nearly full can of crisp Coca-Cola and bolt for the parking lot. ... ... ...  I didn't.  Nine inventory sheets and thousands of dollars later (2 1/2 hours), my task was finished.  I had tallied the Discounted Christmas Shit.  A sense of relief filtered through my body; I hadn't cheated my assignment at all and I had accomplished a major task.  What was this emotion that I suddenly felt?  Pride!  I skipped to the register and handed the clipboard over to Kathy.  Satisfied, I slid around the counter and struck up a conversation. An enjoyable one at that!  She even shared with me a few pearls of wisdom about life.  Finishing my work in a timely matter not only made me proud of myself but it allowed me to enjoy the rest of the night with the woman that I swore I could never like.  It's sort of a chain reaction really.  I eliminated the task at hand and it left me in a better mood, rather than procrastinating and being stuck counting ridiculous seasonal garb for the entire night.  

I am still proud of myself for the work I did last night and am sort of looking forward to the same shift that I hold tonight.  Lazy sloth no more!

Extraordinary

Today has been one of a kind.  Well, sort of.  I woke up this morning and felt ill, didn't want to go to school, Mom let me stay in bed.  Beautiful; on one condition, I'm not allowed to do anything tonight.  Whatever, I'll take it.  I needed a day to rest and just think, alone, in the house, with no one to bug me.  Plus, I don't think I can handle another day o' snot on my school papers.  It really is a pleasant feeling, doing things for yourself.  I feel a long bath coming on...  I've watched a movie, laid in front of my big, warm window with my cat, and I drank a Diet Coke with Lime (mi favorito).  This weekend should be really rejuvenating as well, I work on Saturday with my favorite gal, Liz, Sunday, my sister's coming home from Dayton for a visit and then on Monday, I do believe that I'll be hanging out with Alliee, having a pool party!  :)  Yes, a pool party in January, a very special situation.  I've been so stressed about the musical, a performance for school next week, and other oddities that I haven't had time just to be.  And today will kick-off a lovely little weekend.  

My advice for you:  Never let yourself get to a point of no return in the stress spectrum.  The instant that you see you world crack the slightest bit, stop, wherever you are and breathe.  Many, many people have shared this small piece of wisdom with me, still, I don't breathe often enough.  

Here's a treat for you, my newest video filled with friendly fun and laughter!

...maybe I'll text my sister to get a jump start on our Sunday Sister Fun...

What a kickoff!

Four things for this official first post of my blog... that last one was just a technicality... even though I'm pretty sure that I'm the only person who has read it so far.

First thing:  New MacBook Air.  WHAAAT?  Crash.  Explode.  Now I feel that my Mac is inadequate and that I need to fill the void in my heart by purchasing this new, thin and very wireless wonder.  ... No!  That's what they want.  They being the masterminds behind this b-e-a-u-tiful little computadora; computer for all of you non-Spaniards.  Not only is it precious because it's almost as thick as the top layer of your skin but it's nearly impossible to not break with one wave of your hand.  Durability?  That's only speculation.  Even so, I feel compelled to buy one. 

Second thing:  I still want an iPhone. 

Third thing:  I've been feeling more at ease lately.  Not so much a physical or mental ease, but spiritually.  I feel right with myself for some odd reason.  Maybe this bullying program is getting to my head... honestly, I hope that the principles, no matter how elementary or trite they are, stick for a general mass of West Clermont.  I still have a ways to go morally but each and every day I feel like I am making some sort of difference and progress and that makes me feel happy.  Simply, happy.

Fourth thing: Mrs. Erwin, alias: Annie Moore :)

That was fulfilling.

a quote n00b on the bandwagon

Before this fad of internet blogging becomes obsolete I have decided that to conform wouldn't be such a bad idea.  I spend most of my time searching for something to read electronically anyway... why not part of the time entertain myself and maybe some others with subtle garbage?  I love garbage. tastyblogsnack is what has truly inspired me.  Check 'er out.  If you love Apple and/or wit and satire you should enjoy the lass that calls herself iJustine, original right? (cough)  ... I'm almost positive that she was one of the first to apply the infamous prefix to her given name so I won't dwell on that.  She entertains me, so all is forgiven.

Hopefully throughout this life-sharing experience I can learn more about myself so I can grow as a human, allowing the masses to utilize lessons I learn so they don't have to learn said lessons for themselves... yep.  Garbage.  :)

Here are some links to keep yo'self entertained:

tastyblogsnack - iJustine

JewSchool

List of Patron Saints of Ailments

Pure smut, but oh so enjoyable