I am having a difficult time right now just being content with what I want and what I think I want. I know all of the possible solutions to me feeling this way but I haven't found one just yet that suits my pensivity. (Disclaimer: I just made the word pensivity up.) I am enrolled as Jessica Link: theatre major for Ohio University but am currently having second thoughts upon that major and am leaning more towards that of education underneath the espanol realm. Ya herrdd, biznatch. Espanol para Isa Iba sin todos de la mierda. This is fine, I am accepting the fact that I want to change my major... what I'm not okay with is as followed: will I miss something in the theatre realm if I change my major? Is this what I am supposed to do? Why isn't God answering my prayers? What the crap, God?? But for realz, I am accepting that I can't have my cake and eat it too with my "passions" but it's hard to feel okay about my decision when I feel like I am being given no direction whatsoever, from my family, friends or God. Maybe I'm just being incredibly self-absorbed and cannot see any of the signs, maybe that's the whole reason for me going through this, so I can realize my "self-absorption". Yeah, that sounds good, God puts me through a struggle deciding my majors to ultimately help me understand how I've been acting. I don't even know how to wrap this blog up, alskfjakls, I feel so un-tied and disjointed.
... I need to attend more church... that's it.
Was any of that coherent? I think not.
That's okay.
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1 comment:
maybe you can be on telenovella on Telemundo and combine both passions?
But in all seriousness, I think you might be rushing your neurosis just a bit. You haven't even stepped foot on a college campus, so 'changing' your major isn't really applicable yet. You can major in Spanish Education but still take acting/theatre classes.
That's the beauty of colleges, they have a TON of electives. So be a Spanish Education major to start, b/c that's harder to jump into later ... if you don't like it, switch to something you do. But know that just because you don't 'major' in theatre doesn't mean you can't 'be' in theatre.
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